This is where my heads at... October Goals...

So as I sit in my classroom, I’m wondering why I can’t find the motivations to lose weight. I mean, I gave up all of my vices. No more drugs, no cigarettes, I’ve cut back on my alcohol, all these things are so easy to just stop doing. But I can’t stop eating. I wish I could, I know that I have given up a lot and that I would have the will power to. But I can’t find the will power to just stay on track, I always blame my hectic, busy schedule on why I don’t eat well. Since my wife and I have different schedules, it makes it very difficult to plan meals almost to the point where I don’t even cook because we buy mostly food that is simple for one person to cook alone. My goal is to get myself to a point where I plan my meals with a specific structure. Weight Watchers encourages this as they use the point system to help people lose weight. I’ve been on Weight Watchers for three weeks and I’ve gained 2 pounds.

I am at a crossroads in my life. I am going to be 27 years old in November. I weigh 397 pounds. Aside from Sleep Apnea and Asthma, I have no other weight associated health issues. But that doesn’t mean I’m not at risk. I lost an Uncle in his late 30’s to a Heart Attack, my grandfather died in his 40’s of heart complications and my father has Type II Diabetes. There is also cancer is my bloodline. I am nervous that I will not be around long enough to watch my kids grow up. I feel as though I should not be allowed to have kids until I get my weight down, it would not be fair for me to father children knowing that I’m a time bomb waiting to go off. I don’t want my kids to not have a father.

My better half has been sick this week so no Weight Watchers, but I decided to go grocery shopping instead. When I got home, I portioned everything out and labeled it all with the points values. I then cleaned the house and finished my schoolwork for finals this week.

So laying it out on the line... October Goals.

Track my points.

Walk for 30 minutes a day, Everyday.

Pushups / situps everyday.

Weight watchers once a week.

Lose 10 lbs.

Blog Everyday, even if what I'm blogging about is crap, make a habit of going thru the motions.

That's it...

Hopefully it not over my head, I'll be looking for some positive reinforcement along the way...

Cheers!

-NDB

I guess it'll do.

So I'm here at the house. Cleaning. Trying to sort my shit out. Doing some laundry, paying some bills. Really kinda setting myself up for a good week. I'm making it a goal this week to keep the apartment clean and make sure that our shit is in line. My sister, Cassie, has really been good at keeping track of her weight loss and has been a motivation to me.

She has this new thingy called the Gruve, and it seems like a crazy device. Basically if you sit for to long, it vibrates to get you up and moving...

Been watching some locked up abroad... Man, makes me glad I didn't screw up more as a kid. Anywho, I'm off. My goal is to do either the gym or a bike ride after work. Wish me luck...

Cheers!

-Nacho

Been really stuck lately...

Hey all...

Back to basics. I have my internet set up now to prompt me to blog every morning when I first login...

Hopefully this'll help.

For now, I work on my shit. But I'll be back, I need to do something.

Cheers!

-NDB