So as I sit in my classroom, I’m wondering why I can’t find the motivations to lose weight. I mean, I gave up all of my vices. No more drugs, no cigarettes, I’ve cut back on my alcohol, all these things are so easy to just stop doing. But I can’t stop eating. I wish I could, I know that I have given up a lot and that I would have the will power to. But I can’t find the will power to just stay on track, I always blame my hectic, busy schedule on why I don’t eat well. Since my wife and I have different schedules, it makes it very difficult to plan meals almost to the point where I don’t even cook because we buy mostly food that is simple for one person to cook alone. My goal is to get myself to a point where I plan my meals with a specific structure. Weight Watchers encourages this as they use the point system to help people lose weight. I’ve been on Weight Watchers for three weeks and I’ve gained 2 pounds.
I am at a crossroads in my life. I am going to be 27 years old in November. I weigh 397 pounds. Aside from Sleep Apnea and Asthma, I have no other weight associated health issues. But that doesn’t mean I’m not at risk. I lost an Uncle in his late 30’s to a Heart Attack, my grandfather died in his 40’s of heart complications and my father has Type II Diabetes. There is also cancer is my bloodline. I am nervous that I will not be around long enough to watch my kids grow up. I feel as though I should not be allowed to have kids until I get my weight down, it would not be fair for me to father children knowing that I’m a time bomb waiting to go off. I don’t want my kids to not have a father.
My better half has been sick this week so no Weight Watchers, but I decided to go grocery shopping instead. When I got home, I portioned everything out and labeled it all with the points values. I then cleaned the house and finished my schoolwork for finals this week.
So laying it out on the line... October Goals.
Track my points.
Walk for 30 minutes a day, Everyday.
Pushups / situps everyday.
Weight watchers once a week.
Lose 10 lbs.
Blog Everyday, even if what I'm blogging about is crap, make a habit of going thru the motions.
That's it...
Hopefully it not over my head, I'll be looking for some positive reinforcement along the way...
Cheers!
-NDB
